The Self Reliant Artist

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Tuesday, September 30, 2014

September Reading

September Books

I am very grateful this month for the solace and escape of books, I do not think I could have coped without them

Books that are helping me cope with loss

The Afterlife of Billy Fingers: Annie Kagan (Kindle)  ebook or book
The Happiness Project: Gretchen Rubin (Library) ebook or book
The Life You Were Born to Live: Dan Millman (Kindle) ebook or book
The Laws of Spirit: Dan Millman (Kindle) ebook or book
The Four Purposes of Life: Dan Millman (Kindle) ebook or book
Your Soul Plan: Robert Schwartz (Kindle) ebook or book
Becoming Magic: Genevieve Davis (Kindle) ebook or book

Non- Fiction

Eat For Health: Joel Fuhrman (Kindle) ebook 
Survival Lessons: Alice Hoffman (Library) book
Paradise in Plain Sight: Karen Maezen Miller (Kindle) ebook or book
The Kitchen Diaries: Nigel Slater (Library) ebook or book


Some Kind Of Fairy Tale: Graham Joyce (Kindle) ebook or book

Disclaimer: The (book) links go to the Book Depository with whom I have an Affiliated Link  and so get 10% of the price you pay if you purchase through that link. 

(ebook) goes to Amazon kindle with whom I do not yet have a link.

Where the book is currently no longer  available there the links go to which is a favourite site that will show you where books are available and at what price. I do not get anything from here.

Thursday, September 25, 2014

The Autumn Gift

Kathryn Polanski 
25/5/79  - 7/9/14

I've been away form here for a while. Some of you may be aware through FB that I have recently had to deal with something really really difficult, probably the hardest thing in my life so far.
At 16 I had a beautiful baby girl who I gave up for adoption, seventeen years later I met her and we spent time together when we could but life got in the way as it does, so I never got to spend as much time as I would have liked.
On September 7th she lost her battle with depression and took her own life.
I did not even know she was struggling with depression. No one let me know.
The loss of the future time we could have spent together is overwhelming.
and no matter how I curse and swear and look at what I maybe could have done this is something that I cannot change and that is the saddest thing of all.

She was the Autumn Gift (from Charles de Lints Spirit Walk ) but I did not realise it until it was too late. So many people felt better for having her in their lives but she still felt like she wasn't special and had nothing to offer.

I have always wanted to emulate Esmerelda Foylan The Westlin' Wind ( again from Spirit Walk)and help people to find their way. I had hoped to be able to do Martha Beck's training course but the money was just not forthcoming at this time, but next time or sometime I will do it, I also plan to do the Art Therapy course through Phoenix and somehow make a difference. I have wanted to do this for a long time but I am hoping to use this as a catalyst to push me forward.

All I can take from this it to make sure my life is the best damn life I can live, not to take things for granted.

The best people possess a feeling for beauty
the courage to take risks
the discipline to tell the truth
the capacity for sacrifice
Ironically their virtues make them vulnerable
they are often wounded
sometimes destroyed

Ernest Hemingway

Goodbye beautiful girl
x te

Saturday, September 6, 2014

New Work off to WA

4 of 9 new small works hot wax on paper 
with hand made oil paint

They will be in an exhibition

a very nice winery 
just around the corner from home

as part of 

running from September 27th
to October 12th

x te